Holly Madison, the bubbly blonde and Hef's ex-main squeeze, said her self-esteem was crushed when she lived at the Playboy Mansion.
"Living with Hef brought down my self-esteem a lot," Madison confessed.
In an interview with Life & Style first obtained by PopEater, the buxom blonde said she agonized over her looks when she lived at the storied California mansion where a parade of stunning cookie-cutter centerfolds would come and go as they pleased.
"I was comparing myself to the other girls. ... You have to look a certain way at the mansion," Madison told the magazine. "If you look at Hef's girlfriend now, she basically looks like a clone of me. It's kind of weird."
The ex-"Girl Next Door" dished on her insecurities and said growing up, she always aspired to be like the women she saw in the glossy magazine.
"I compared myself to those [Playboy playmates]. I knew what I wanted to look like and was kind of disappointed," she said. "I had a butt and no boobs."
Holly, who split from Hugh Hefner last October, said she's happy with the plastic surgery she's gotten so far.
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"Plastic surgery made it easier for me to get things I wanted in my career," she said. "Without it, I wouldn't be where I am today. ... My nose photographed really big in front of my face. If I wanted to do anything in the entertainment industry, I needed to get it fixed," she said.
"I was definitely happy with the results. It made me more confident. And a lot of doors open when you look a certain way."